I Want....

[teneka]

I think I forgot something...I live the life of a magic user, I can go anywhere in the world in the blink of an eye. I can tell the future through a ball of glass. Become whatever I want and run through the forests of my own mind. I have friends that are not of this world and travel the skies and worlds with them but the one thing I'm missing. The one thing I've forgotten....love.

I used to write for pages and pages about this eternal, massive thing, something that was so permanent and so perfect, so concrete and safe. Something so powerful that time and space just melt before it...I have forgotten how to feel such power. I don't fell it right now. Not for my boyfriend, or any of my suitors....

I want to know love again...where is it? How do I find it? I can't remember...And it used to come so easily to me. So powerful it waould flow into me. I could feel my heart swell with it...now it's all gone...just gone...

So I return to the pryer I used to pray before all this..back when I was innocent. I used to wish for a hero...a night in shining armor, with a castle and a horse that's all his. Armor that is made of real steel, no imitation. On he made with his own hands...

Romance...it seems I've forgotten what that feels like to. Flowers and Candies....candle lit dinners..even little things a phone call just to say I love you and mean it. I want someone to tell me why he loves me..why I am special to him. And he, the one I'm with can't tell me...

So stanger, whoever you are, dreamgiver, perfect one. Whoever you are....love me, romance me...but do not seduce me. My body has been violated enough...there is no longer any love in matters of the bedroom for me. And I don't want it anymore....and for him...my perfect one, whoever he is, will understand. He will want my body but lust...oh I'm so tired of lust...I don't want it anymore...Someone kiss me for love of my sould not my body. Oh stars...make this abuse stop. Help me....

I feel alone, I'm so clingy with him, or I was. I couldn't stand to be away from him because in his absence I would get so lonely but now I want him to keep away. I want to be lonely. Is this a sign he is not for me? I loved him so deeply years ago but now...it's so faded. Its like, now that I know what he's like I don't want it...but then that makes all my years of pursuing him all for naught. It just doesn't seem right...all of my efforts were in vain?


I miss you love...romance...I no longer want this bedroom passion, and needs for love satisfied only by his presence. I want romance back...remind me how to love...remind me what it's like....someone help me....

Come wet a widow`s eye
Cover the night with your love
Dry the rain from my beaten face
Drink the wine the red sweet taste of mine

Come cover me with you
For the thrill
Till you will take me in
Come comfort me in you
Young love must
Live twice only for us

For me
For you
Time devours passion`s beauty
With me
With you
In war for the love of you
(Tonight any dream will do)

Not a world but your fine grace
Seduction in sleepwalker`s land
November dressed in May on your face
Holding us now the lovecropper`s hand

Come cover me with you...



*sighs* ooooohhh gimmie! -_- *sits down and anime pouts*

[Azriel]

You're adorable, and very intelligent. I'm sure things will work out for you, you're so expressive too. You're a great girl, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who sees that.

[chieyumi]

If I were a guy I would totally sweep you off your feet and huggles your tears away!!!!
after I get a job >.> ehehehehehehehehehehe eheh heh -_-